First off I’d like to apologize for not posting my weight on Christmas Eve. I completely forgot to take a photo of the scale and then I was sidetracked by other things. I was up to 350 pounds. It was a pretty rough day for me too because of all of the fantastic food I got to partake in that evening.
I started this blog before the first of the year to give myself some time to think and to acclimate myself to posting. Sharing my weight, and associated issues with the world is not an easy thing for me to do. I am generally a private person about things like this, but I’m hoping my struggle will give others comfort and strength in their own struggles.
The New Year is right around the corner and I have been wracking my brain on how to best do a New Year’s Resolution. I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do, but it is the how behind it that has been tripping me up.
I’ve been reading the blog Peace with Food over at peacewithfood.com, these women have struggled with a way to make peace with what you eat and do what is healthy for you. I have been trying to take their advice and find ways to practically make it work for me. Dieting has never worked for me, I just don’t have the willpower to do it.
My resolution for 2015 is to work on having peace with my eating. To control it, rather than have it controlling me. I’m not going to lie, it is a very daunting task for me. I am an emotional eater, and finding peace will require me to break some very strong bonds with food so I can have a healthy relationship with it.
I will do my best to blog about my thoughts, struggles, and successes. I want to share these with the world in hopes that one day my struggle will bring someone else a strength that they did not possess within themselves. I borrow strength from others all of the time, and even this blog is a way to borrow strength from those who read it.
The biggest question for me isn’t what to resolve, but how I am going to resolve on doing it. I read a book by Orrin Woodward about setting goals and actually having metrics against them. It was an eye-opening even for me. While it may not directly apply to losing weight, I am going to use the idea and set up measurable goals and things to check daily and weekly to see how I am doing. I haven’t decided what all of these will be, and I’m certain what I already have will change with time.
I plan on doing the following:
Figuring out a nutrition plan and what works for me.
- Purchase a pedometer and track daily how many steps I take. In addition, my goal will be to gradually take more steps every week. I had originally thought of doing this daily, but totaling the week up and ensuring that it is better than the prior week will give me a bit of flexibility depending on what is going on. I am thinking of getting a FitBit, but I haven’t settled on anything yet.
- Log my food intake daily.
- Work on reducing the amount of net carbs that I eat, bringing the protein and fat numbers up.
- Eating vegetables and fruit every day. This is something that I struggle with now. I don’t do a very good job at either, but if I am going to get better I have to.
- A weekly physical activity with the kids. I’m not certain what this will be, and I’m assuming it will change week to week.
- After I get my weight down to roughly 300 pounds find a physical activity that interests me and work on mastering it.
- Build body strength with simple workouts several times a week.
I could go on and on, but I will start with these. It will take time to implement them, but I will work at them and keep on getting better.
This is probably the most difficult part for me. I will work up posts from time to time explaining my various reasons when they are happening.
I look forward to writing for you all the next year. Please feel free to comment or email me.