Posted in Weightloss

Weight-loss brings new life

A History of Weight Problems

For most of my life I have struggled with weight. I was always one of the biggest guys in school for as long as I could remember. I was picked on as the fat kid relentlessly. A lack of self-confidence and an addiction to food ensued.

By the time I graduated high school I am certain I weighed well over 250 pounds. I didn’t really feel I was that fat. I would look at the super obese people and think to myself “at least I’m not as big as that guy.” I even made comments to my ex-wife that “I would rather die than get that big.”

Well two kids, a bad marriage, and a binge eating order solidly in place I managed to gain all the way up to 385 pounds. I was busting out of a size 58 pair of pants and squeezing into a 3xlt shirt.

In 2010 I had a car accident and had one of my children been behind me they would have died in the crash. I wish that I had a good picture of the inside of the car, but the back of the drivers seat was embedded all the way into the car seat behind me. If you look closely in the picture you can see how far the drivers seat is tilted.


It served as a wake up call to me and I started dieting using Herbalife. I lost almost 100 pounds and I kept it off for a time, but as my marriage really went on the rocks I started to put the weight back on. That is a story for another time.

My weight varied wildly over the next few years.

Hope for a change

In May of 2016 the contract holder for my job changed. With this new employer came far better benefits than I had ever received before. I found out that many years of prayer were finally answered, I had insurance that would cover bariatric surgery.

After looking at a few different places I ended up settling on Grand Health Partners. It took a few months to jump through all of the hoops, but finally on August 29, 2016 the surgeon and the wonderful staff at St Mary’s hospital performed a vertical sleeve gastrectomy procedure. This procedure removed the bulk of my stomach leaving only a little sleeve to be able to fit food in.

As of yesterday I am down almost 122 pounds (less than 250lbs), wear a size 40/42 pant and a large or XL shirt depending on the brand. Below I have provided a before and mostly current picture for comparison.

This photo was taken the end of May 2016.
January 25, 2017. Down almost 120 pounds!











A new lease on life

When I was 370 pounds I didn’t like life. I wanted to hide because I was miserable. My interpersonal relationships suffered for it. I became a bit of a hermit and didn’t want to do anything.

Today life is very different. I suffer from self-confidence issues, but I get out and do a great many things. I workout, dance, date, and just all around enjoy life. Its the small things in life that you don’t realize you couldn’t do until all of the sudden you can.

Restoring work of Christ

As I work through untangling all of the emotions that are tied to weight and food it is important for me to see this as a time of the sanctification of my spirit. By using this tool to help get my weight under control, I am finding new found strengths in other parts of my life as well.

I am thankful to God every day for this new found lease on life. I give God the glory for these changes in my life because I know what a wretched sinful man I am without him.

Posted in 350 To Healthy

Catching Up and the Future


I know it has been awhile since I really posted anything on here. I’ve been lazy, I’ve been busy, life goes on. I could come up with a million excuses, but quite simply I haven’t done very well on getting to the healthy part.

When I started this blog I was so excited to lose weight. I did decent too. I lost 30 or 40 pounds, and I felt fantastic. Then life changed, I had a new job, a girl I was dating, and things got out of hand. I started slipping and falling into old habits.

Well I am here now, up over 360 pounds. I feel terrible, and I just have no energy. My stomach and guts are in a mess and I cannot seem to get myself motivated to really gain any traction.

I work really hard, and I push myself to the point that I am exhausted in the afternoon and its all I can do to not fall asleep and take a nap. I bought a house and have been doing lots of work on it, but only a couple hours on the weekends. By the end of those days I am just demolished. I normally end up taking a nap mid to late afternoon so I can function in the evening.

I started Herbalife again, but haven’t been able to go at the plan like I used to. I just have not had the zeal for it I used to.

What I am about to say is probably the most difficult thing that I have ever said to anyone, let alone the whole internet in my entire life.

I am addicted to food. I buy food and eat it and never tell a sole about it. After all, its just one candy bar, or one soda right? Well that one leads to two, to three, and beyond. I think I may also suffer some from binge eating. Why else could I devour a whole pizza? Its not that I want to eat that much, but I just have difficult resisting that next slice, and by the time I know it more than half the pizza is gone.

I cannot keep living like this. It is going to kill me, and it is going to kill me young.

To that end, the announcement that I promised the other day that I would make. I have decided to get bariatric surgery. I am more than likely going to go with the gastric sleeve, but I may end up going with the bypass depending on what my discussion with the doctor yields.

This is a very difficult thing for me. The surgery isn’t going to make me thin, its a tool to help me break my addictions.

I am tired of being fat, sick, and tired. God only knows what other medical problems I have that I don’t know about. Diabetes? Sleep Apnea? Clogged arteries? IBS? Celiac disease? I have been to afraid to ask and find out. I’ve been able to pretend I’m well, but I’m honestly not.

I am afraid that I won’t live until I’m 40 if I don’t do something about this now. It scares me to think of leaving my kids behind because I couldn’t admit to my problem.

So here I am, taking my first true step. I am admitting that I have a problem and I just cannot solve it on my own.

Thanks for spending the time to read this,



Posted in 350 To Healthy

Getting back at this again

Back in the game

Hello everyone,

I know it has been a long while since I posted on here. I have been really busy and I let this get away from me. I’m back to a point where I need the support of blogging to help my mindset.

So a few updates:

New Job

I have a new job. I am now working an hour away. I am looking for a closer place to live, but I haven’t found one yet. Hopefully very soon. I don’t like that I’ll be moving the kids in the middle of a school term, but it is what it is. I am making a lot more money though, so I have a lot more options available to me.

Recovering from injury

Recently I injured my ankle pretty badly. God was watching over me though. Thankfully it wasn’t much worse than it was. I had to wear one of those stupid boots. I couldn’t walk without it. I still cannot run, but I’m walking more.


Its a very complicated subject. I’m looking at making some more friends.



Anyhow, I’m back at it. So expect to see more soon.