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Weight-loss brings new life

A History of Weight Problems

For most of my life I have struggled with weight. I was always one of the biggest guys in school for as long as I could remember. I was picked on as the fat kid relentlessly. A lack of self-confidence and an addiction to food ensued.

By the time I graduated high school I am certain I weighed well over 250 pounds. I didn’t really feel I was that fat. I would look at the super obese people and think to myself “at least I’m not as big as that guy.” I even made comments to my ex-wife that “I would rather die than get that big.”

Well two kids, a bad marriage, and a binge eating order solidly in place I managed to gain all the way up to 385 pounds. I was busting out of a size 58 pair of pants and squeezing into a 3xlt shirt.

In 2010 I had a car accident and had one of my children been behind me they would have died in the crash. I wish that I had a good picture of the inside of the car, but the back of the drivers seat was embedded all the way into the car seat behind me. If you look closely in the picture you can see how far the drivers seat is tilted.


It served as a wake up call to me and I started dieting using Herbalife. I lost almost 100 pounds and I kept it off for a time, but as my marriage really went on the rocks I started to put the weight back on. That is a story for another time.

My weight varied wildly over the next few years.

Hope for a change

In May of 2016 the contract holder for my job changed. With this new employer came far better benefits than I had ever received before. I found out that many years of prayer were finally answered, I had insurance that would cover bariatric surgery.

After looking at a few different places I ended up settling on Grand Health Partners. It took a few months to jump through all of the hoops, but finally on August 29, 2016 the surgeon and the wonderful staff at St Mary’s hospital performed a vertical sleeve gastrectomy procedure. This procedure removed the bulk of my stomach leaving only a little sleeve to be able to fit food in.

As of yesterday I am down almost 122 pounds (less than 250lbs), wear a size 40/42 pant and a large or XL shirt depending on the brand. Below I have provided a before and mostly current picture for comparison.

This photo was taken the end of May 2016.
January 25, 2017. Down almost 120 pounds!











A new lease on life

When I was 370 pounds I didn’t like life. I wanted to hide because I was miserable. My interpersonal relationships suffered for it. I became a bit of a hermit and didn’t want to do anything.

Today life is very different. I suffer from self-confidence issues, but I get out and do a great many things. I workout, dance, date, and just all around enjoy life. Its the small things in life that you don’t realize you couldn’t do until all of the sudden you can.

Restoring work of Christ

As I work through untangling all of the emotions that are tied to weight and food it is important for me to see this as a time of the sanctification of my spirit. By using this tool to help get my weight under control, I am finding new found strengths in other parts of my life as well.

I am thankful to God every day for this new found lease on life. I give God the glory for these changes in my life because I know what a wretched sinful man I am without him.

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Weigh-in Wednesday

Good Evening,

I weighed myself this morning, but I didn’t have a chance to get online and put it on. Work has been so crazy hectic lately.

On a bright note, I’m well over 10000 steps for the day on my FitBit. Speaking of which, I setup a twitter account because my Fitbit doesn’t want to integrate with my blog properly. If anyone has any ideas please let me know.

So on to the results. Continue reading “Weigh-in Wednesday”

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10,000 steps.

I had a very exciting day yesterday. I managed to hit 10,000 steps with my FitBit. While I’m certain it may have missed some I am still pleased with the results.

The sleep number isn’t quite what I wanted to see, but it is more than sufficient for what I need. I’ll try to remember to post these at least once a week.



Have a great day,


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Weigh in Wednesday

Good Morning,

It is another Weigh-in Wednesday. I wish the number was a better, but as my mom likes to tell me “If wishes were horses then beggars would ride.”

It’s down a pound from last week. It should be even better next week. I am championing a get healthy challenge at work that starts today. So I’ll be working on finding peace with what I eat and not letting it control me.


I also picked up a fit-bit. I haven’t figured out why it isn’t posting my stats yet, but I’m working on it!

Take care,




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Having a party with my old lifestyle

Good Afternoon,

So no weigh-in today, sorry guys. My bathroom is completely torn apart and a new floor is being put in. So I’ll start fresh next Wednesday, maybe even I’ll post some new pictures, so I can show my progress.

Today, I am having a little bit of a party with my old lifestyle, truth be told I’ve probably been doing it the last couple of weeks. I decided that after the first of the year I was really going to put my nose to the grindstone and really work at changing my behaviors and dependence on food for emotional comfort.

So in order to really make a difference in my life, I have been going through and trying most of what were my favorite foods. It means that I’ve had way too much sugar and food in general. In the last couple weeks, I have been trying out foods, and even keeping in mind where they don’t taste good anymore. I’ve really decided that eating in general doesn’t taste well. I cannot remember the last time I thought that a specific meal sounded good. This tells me that I eat for the sake of eating. I’m not really watching what I eat, except to see it go into my mouth. It’s not healthy, I might as well be a garbage disposal.

With 2014 rapidly coming to a close, I am truly ready to start anew. To begin a new lifestyle where I have peace with what I eat, rather than being at war or just eating because I can.  Tonight I am going to go out and have fun and “party” like I probably never will again.

When I wake up tomorrow morning, I will start putting into action the healthier choices I have already decided to make. I know that I will have good days and bad days, but I am committed to making changes every day for the better, even if they are small ones. Eventually, with all of the little changes I make a large change will happen and I won’t have even thought about it.


I am going to end with a couple of quotes.



Have a safe and fun night tonight!



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The failure of “Nutrition” companies

I want to preface this by saying I am not knocking nutrition companies, but I am sharing my personal experience.


There are a ton of nutrition companies out there. They all offer ways to lose weight in quick and easy fashions, but the truth is they all fail at really fixing the problem. They glaze over the truth with a diet. They help us get down to a goal weight, but when we stop using their products, or one similar we can quickly balloon back up to our old size or even larger still! Who hasn’t been on a yo-yo diet.


Several years ago I was in a car accident and I decided I needed to get healthier. If you look closely in the picture above my seat was pushed back into the back seat. If one of my kids had been in the car it would have seriously injured if not killed them. The seat was resting flush against the car seat. I was an amazing 385 pounds at this point in my life. I swore to myself that I wouldn’t ever be that large again. This accident actually caused quite a few changes in my life.

I started using Herbalife. The products were/are delicious. They had me replacing two meals a day with one of their supplement shakes. I really did poorly for a long time. It was hard to replace meals with a drink that was only a few hundred calories, but when I could pull it off I could have some amazing results. I ended up getting all the way down to 300 pounds and I felt fantastic.

At close to my lowest weight in a long time at an Herbalife event.


That was until my marriage went into a tail-spin and my wife at the time was starting to have her affair. I quickly put on almost all of the weight I had taken off. I have been struggling ever since. I haven’t been able to get any traction.

Its not really the products that failed me, its the way they go about teaching people to lose weight. Its the people who distribute the products. Whether its Herbalife, Amyway, Body by Vi, or some other “scientifically formulated” meal replacement none of them really deal with the heart of the problem.

The MLM companies are full of the false gospel of Health and Wealth. Its not the companies themselves so much, they a lot agree with it, its the people who distribute their products. Those of you who say to have more faith, that God promised us health. You are wrong. When you tell us to have more faith, you are telling us that one other thing is wrong with us. I would hate to have a faith so shallow to think that I can have to little or to much faith. When a storm comes, and you have all the faith in the world that God is going to deliver what you want him to deliver, and he doesn’t will your faith really stand?

The people who sell these products also parrot whatever they are taught. They are given a basic level of knowledge to help others, but nothing to really help what lies at the root of most weight problems.

In my opinion most weight problems are caused by an addiction to food, or other associated mental and self images problems that go along with being heavy. Its a self-defeating behavior. Have you ever been heavy and want to exercise? You try and people make fun of you, or you feel like they do so you stop. You feel like you’re inadequate. You cannot buy your cloths where everyone else buys them. You are afraid to get close to people because of what they think of your weight. Our society is cruel to heavy people. Insurance companies don’t want to cover anything related to weight-loss. They don’t want to help pay for counseling, when that is what a great deal of people need.

A lot of us aren’t taught the basics of nutrition, and when we learn it we feel the people are being condescending because most of the time they are thin and they really do come across that way. People lack compassion for over-weight people. They tend to feel that it is their own fault they are this way.

The truth is many over-weight people don’t know how not to be. Many thin people just cannot relate, especially kids. Kids are the cruelest. Most of us who are over-weight like I am as adults, were over-weight as kids. The other kids would ridicule and torment us. We’d be the last one picked, or the friend that makes everyone else look good.

I was suicidal for many years as a teen because of weight. I cut myself because I didn’t have any other way to express that pain. I hated being fat, and I hated not having many friends.

So bringing it around to my original point, these companies have failed me because they fail to address the basic problem that lies underneath. I dare say it lies underneath a great many obese people. They fail because they are only a band-aid to what is truly underneath. They can’t train their people to truly handle the problem that lies underneath. The pain that is hidden deep inside, hidden from the rest of the world.

Now I am happy to say that I am not suicidal today, and I’m a happy person. I am not the same person I was, and God has healed me of much. Part of the reason I am writing this blog is to help others. Its therapeutic for me to write, but also I know that if I can help even one other person walk through their problems knowing they aren’t alone. It is worth it.


So I would be remiss to talk about suicide in a post and not include links to help if you are feeling that way.

If you are feeling suicidal right now call 911 and get help.

If you need someone to talk to visit any one of the following pages:

Want more information on suicide and what you can do to help? Visit


Sorry for the sadness of this post.