Posted in Weightloss

6 Months post Surgery

Good Evening Everyone,

I had my six month post surgery appointment a week ago today. I know I am slacking on this post, but life has been busy dating, and playing my new Nintendo Switch. It’s amazing, maybe I’ll write a post on it later.

So today I hit a milestone 136 pounds lost! I now weight 233.4 pounds! Pretty darn excited about that if I do say so myself.

The numbers above are from my 6 month appointment. My high weight was 369.4 and I was at 233.4 when I stepped on the scale.

If you think about it, I’ve lost an entire small adult off of my body. That is crazy!

The non-scale victories are huge too. I am so much more agile; I can bend over and tie my shoes; I can do a ton of things that I couldn’t do before. I’m also slowly finding more confidence in myself.

Just wanted to throw out a quick update post. Take care everyone!

Posted in 350 To Healthy

Having a party with my old lifestyle

Good Afternoon,

So no weigh-in today, sorry guys. My bathroom is completely torn apart and a new floor is being put in. So I’ll start fresh next Wednesday, maybe even I’ll post some new pictures, so I can show my progress.

Today, I am having a little bit of a party with my old lifestyle, truth be told I’ve probably been doing it the last couple of weeks. I decided that after the first of the year I was really going to put my nose to the grindstone and really work at changing my behaviors and dependence on food for emotional comfort.

So in order to really make a difference in my life, I have been going through and trying most of what were my favorite foods. It means that I’ve had way too much sugar and food in general. In the last couple weeks, I have been trying out foods, and even keeping in mind where they don’t taste good anymore. I’ve really decided that eating in general doesn’t taste well. I cannot remember the last time I thought that a specific meal sounded good. This tells me that I eat for the sake of eating. I’m not really watching what I eat, except to see it go into my mouth. It’s not healthy, I might as well be a garbage disposal.

With 2014 rapidly coming to a close, I am truly ready to start anew. To begin a new lifestyle where I have peace with what I eat, rather than being at war or just eating because I can.  Tonight I am going to go out and have fun and “party” like I probably never will again.

When I wake up tomorrow morning, I will start putting into action the healthier choices I have already decided to make. I know that I will have good days and bad days, but I am committed to making changes every day for the better, even if they are small ones. Eventually, with all of the little changes I make a large change will happen and I won’t have even thought about it.


I am going to end with a couple of quotes.



Have a safe and fun night tonight!



Posted in The Journey

Thursday morning weigh in

Well it is that time of the week again. Time to face the scale of doom and see what I weigh this week.

Week 3 Scale

I am dissapointed to not see the scale move this week even though I have lost almost 2 inches off of my body since I weighed in last week. I’m sure i’m losing fat and putting on muscle, but still it is a dissapointment.

I resolve to see that scale go down next week. It will be down, period. I don’t care if its just a pound, it will be down! I can and will make it go down.

Posted in The Journey

A battle with sugar

When I started this blog I told everyone that I would be honest with them about my struggles. It is a very difficult thing to do. Right now I am seriously struggling with the desire to eat a whole bunch of sweets. I’m not sure how to control it. It is like an overwhelming urge and I don’t know what to do.

I feel like this kid from Hey Arnold lately:

or maybe Augustuss Gloop


Candy and sweets are my addiction and they are slowly killing me.

Any advice on how to over come would be greatly appreciated.


Posted in The Journey

It’s not about losing weight . . .

There are many people out there who want to lose weight, but how often is it really about losing weight? We all have our reasons to want to lose weight; attracting the right mate, being healthier, helping get a better job, or just plain tired of being sick and tired. Whatever the reason may be, we all have one.

Losing weight isn’t a diet.

You read the books, you watch the news and the weightloss shows and they all tell you it’s either about the diet or about the exercise or both, but how true is that really? How many people do you know that eat well and are still fat? What about exersize like crazy and are still over-weight?

Losing weight is about nutrition. The majority of losing weight falls square on what you put in your mouth, not how much of it. If you eat food that isn’t good for you it’s going to show. Have you ever stopped to wonder if sometimes its about what you aren’t eating as well?

Most of the food pyramids out there tell us that eating grains and starches should be the bulk of our diet, but how much of that is really true? For centuries before the FDA and other countries equavalent programs what did we eat? We ate primarly fruits, vegetables, and meats. Why then are those items the small part at the top of the food pyramid instead of the bottom?

We as a society are getting fatter because we eat these calorie dense foods that have little nurishment for our body in them. Every time heat is added to food it kills the good stuff in it. How many of us eat our vegetables raw, let alone the 7 to 9 servings a day the doctors recommend?

Here are a couple of photos to give you an idea:

McNasty McDouble
McDouble – 390 Calories

1 McDonald’s McDouble Calories = 390 Calories


Green Beans
Green Beans – 48 Calories

48 Calories – 1 Cup of green beans

Grill Chicken
Grill Chicken – 114 Calories

141 Calories -1 Grilled Chicken breast (approx 4 ounces)

Corn on the Cob
Corn on the Cob 70 Calores

70 Calories – 1 Corn on the cob, 1 5 in. ear

1/4 Cup Shredded Cheddar Cheese
1/4 Cup Shredded Cheddar Cheese 114 Calories

114 Calories – 1/4 cup of shredded cheedar cheese

Grand Total = 373 Calories

Given the choice I’d rather eat meal 2 than meal one. It only gets worse from there.

Long term losing weight is more than just making the right choices.

Anyone can lose the weight by making right choices, but the weight won’t stay off if you don’t change your lifestyle. You can’t leave the weight off if you go back and do what you were doing that got you there in the first place.

So for myself I am making one small improvement in my life at a time. I am looking into my habits and hang-ups, trying to find out my weak points and working with God to deal with my past issues.

Some Wisdom from the Bible – Proverbs 23

When you sit down to eat with a ruler,
observe carefully what is before you,
and put a knife to your throat
if you are given to appetite.
Do not desire his delicacies,
for they are deceptive food.
Do not toil to acquire wealth;
be discerning enough to desist.
When your eyes light on it, it is gone,
for suddenly it sprouts wings,
flying like an eagle toward heaven.
Do not eat the bread of a man who is stingy;
do not desire his delicacies,
for he is like one who is inwardly calculating.
“Eat and drink!” he says to you,
but his heart is not with you.
You will vomit up the morsels that you have eaten,
and waste your pleasant words.
Do not speak in the hearing of a fool,
for he will despise the good sense of your words.
Do not move an ancient landmark
or enter the fields of the fatherless,
for their Redeemer is strong;
he will plead their cause against you.
Apply your heart to instruction
and your ear to words of knowledge.
Do not withhold discipline from a child;
if you strike him with a rod, he will not die.
If you strike him with the rod,
you will save his soul from Sheol.
My son, if your heart is wise,
my heart too will be glad.
My inmost being will exult
when your lips speak what is right.
Let not your heart envy sinners,
but continue in the fear of the LORD all the day.
Surely there is a future,
and your hope will not be cut off.
Hear, my son, and be wise,
and direct your heart in the way.
Be not among drunkards
or among gluttonous eaters of meat,
for the drunkard and the glutton will come to poverty,
and slumber will clothe them with rags.
Listen to your father who gave you life,
and do not despise your mother when she is old.
Buy truth, and do not sell it;
buy wisdom, instruction, and understanding.
The father of the righteous will greatly rejoice;
he who fathers a wise son will be glad in him.
Let your father and mother be glad;
let her who bore you rejoice.
My son, give me your heart,
and let your eyes observe my ways.
For a prostitute is a deep pit;
an adulteress is a narrow well.
She lies in wait like a robber
and increases the traitors among mankind.
Who has woe? Who has sorrow?
Who has strife? Who has complaining?
Who has wounds without cause?
Who has redness of eyes?
Those who tarry long over wine;
those who go to try mixed wine.
Do not look at wine when it is red,
when it sparkles in the cup
and goes down smoothly.
In the end it bites like a serpent
and stings like an adder.
Your eyes will see strange things,
and your heart utter perverse things.
You will be like one who lies down in the midst of the sea,
like one who lies on the top of a mast.
“They struck me,” you will say, “but I was not hurt;
they beat me, but I did not feel it.
When shall I awake?
I must have another drink.”
– (Proverbs 23 ESV)

Posted in The Journey

Tune it up on Thursdays!

Good Morning! It’s Thursday and you know what that means! It’s time for me to share what the scale says. After all the scale doesn’t lie.

First though I would like to mention how very difficult it is to step on the scale and read the numbers for me.  It’s a real self-confidence killer to step on the scale and see whatever the numbers are. I want to be thin already, but I know it takes time.

The scale never shows what I want it to show, it shows the cold hard truth. It tells me whether I have been faithful to my plan or if I cheated. It’s like a mini truth detector. Have I mentioned how much I really hate the scale? There are days that I wish it would lie to me and tell me I did a better job than what I really did. Alas it isn’t so and I have to deal with what it actually says and work on being better next week.

The cold hard bitter truth of the scale

Well here it is: 353.8lbs (with picture of the scale)  That would be a .8 increase over where I started last week.

9-29-2012 Weigh-In

I thought I did well this week, but apparently I didn’t. I need to do a better job logging food this next week and hitting my water numbers.

Posted in The Journey

A Scary Thought and Article

(image from ABC News)

I was reading the yahoo news feed on lunch today and I saw this article: 407 Pound Woman Denied Flights Home, Dies Abroad. Second Article

To summarize: The article is about a 56 year old woman named Vilma Soltez who had one leg and weighed 407 pounds and had kidney problems. She was trying to get home to the US for medical care, but was unable to board a flight due to issues with her seat, unable to board a second flight at a different airport because they had no way to get her on the airplane, and kicked off a third flight because she couldn’t get under the seat belt.

A few other notes from the article: “According to reports, a local fire crew were bought in to help move her into the seats but they could not lift her out of her wheelchair.”

My own opinion on the matter: The airlines do their best on the matter. The fact is that she could have received care where she was. Where does the airline make the cut off for what is safe for other passengers? How does one persons value hold more than the other 150 people on the airplane?  It just doesn’t jive that her husband is suing the airlines for doing their best, but ultimately choosing the safety of the other passengers.

The tragedy of obesity:

Events like the one I mentioned really make me reflect on my own life and struggles. At my highest weight I was at 385 lbs and I hated myself for it.  I couldn’t even look in the mirror without seeing myself in disgust. I hated myself for who I had become. The person in the mirror wasn’t the me I saw.

When I see other people who are becoming big like what I currently am it makes me angry. I just want to go up to them and talk and say “why would you do this to yourself! Stop now and make the changes. You don’t want to be where I am. Stop, turn back now!”

Over the last couple of years my personality has changed and I have done a lot of personal development. I am not longer the person I once was. I have such compassion for those people who are in the same struggles as me. It’s why I have chosen to share my own personal journey, even if it is just a little piece here and a little piece there.

The Facts:

  • 7 out of 10 Americans are Overweight and it’s growing.
  • We live in a high calorie low nutrition society
  • We fill our bodies with toxic chemicals that cause a myriad of health problems
  • Most of our food has huge amounts of sugar added to it.
  • We have a multi-billion dollar business that makes people “healthy” but gives them more side-effects that they need to take other medicines to fix those issue.
  • The number 1 complaint of doctors visits is chronic fatigue.
  • American’s don’t tend to slow down and enjoy life. It’s always more, bigger, better, faster, etc.
  • When a person is diagnosed as diabetic they are given insulin; switched to artificial sweeteners; told to eat a diet high in starches and grains. There is something wrong with this picture, starches and grains are high in sugar!
  • Insulin causes your body to store more fat! In fact many people on insulin gain weight every single year!

I could go on and on and on about the problems I see caused just from our diets, but I will refrain.

The stuff hidden in our foods

MSG (Monosodium Glutamate) : MSG is a neurotoxic substance that causes a wide range of reactions from temporary headaches to permanent brain damage. Almost all processed foods contain MSG

Pesticides: Every time we eat an item that has had pesticides sprayed on it we are taking in remnants of those chemicals. Did you know that we get it in our meats and animal products as well? Every time they are fed this food the chemicals are passed along. Our bodies were not designed to break down these chemicals! Worst of all we eat them and our body stores them because it doesn’t know what to do!

HYDROGENATED OILS: To be put in its simplest term, hydrogenated oils are rigid fats. They are not naturally occurring and our bodies can not use these properly.

High Fructose Corn Syrup: HFCS is added to a great deal of foods to make them sweeter. It is extremely high in sugar and isn’t really healthy for anyone. On a side not they are working to change the name to just “Corn Syrup” since the other has such negative association with it.

There are a lot of unnatural things hidden in our foods.

Changes to make:

We all know that being over-weight sucks. It kills our energy, makes us unhappy, depressed, etc, but did you know that fat cells not only store the sugar, but they also store the chemicals we eat.

There are a lot of things we can do to change our direction. Being willing to make a change is the very first step in any journey. Figuring out which direction to go is the second. So if you want to help fight this obesity epidemic sweeping the developed world you need to first start with yourself. So I am going to tell you what I am doing to change the world around me by first changing myself.

I know that I have a deeply personal battle with obesity. I worry about things like that article happening to me all the time. My mom is extremely overweight so I worry about it happening to her also. How can I help my mom change if I can’t change myself? To that end I have resolved to do certain things, to make changes as necessary and grow.

  1. I resolve to put Jesus first in my life and myself second.
  2. I resolve to change myself so I may have a positive impact on those around me.
  3. I resolve to make better food choices; to read the labels; to think about what I buy.
  4. I resolve to log my food in a journal because I know that without any measurements I will have a hard time getting to any destination.
  5. I resolve to exercise a little bit every single day. Even a few minutes, a few extra steps, its better than what I was doing.
  6. I resolve to share my 100% honest results once a week whether the results are good or bad.
  7. I resolve to be honest about my struggles with those that I trust.
  8. I resolve to be diligent and to ask for help whenever needed.
  9. I resolve to share my own personal journey in hopes that my own journey may make someone else journey just a little bit easier.
  10. I resolve to be a little bit better every day.

That is all the time I have to write for now, but I will probably expand on some of this stuff later in different posts.  I hope you all have a wonderful evening and I look forward to reading your blogs and progress as well.

God Bless